Here’s my story:
I was born at Russia in 1990. I was one of the very last Soviet born kids in USSR, before the country collapse. My father became an alcoholic after collapse of communism. We live his parents(my grandparents) he use to fight physically with his parents & my mother. Local police arrested him many times. I also had great time spending time at my grandparents garden outside of the city, it was very popular thing to do till about year 2000. Before I moved to USA in 2000, I’ve gotten into a bicycle accident. I ended up having severe internal injury. I ripped my liver. Doctors told my mom that I might not make it, I had a 50%-50% to live. My mother & my grandmother had prayed for me while I was sleeping for 2 days after the surgery. When I woke up, I couldn’t believe it. I had tubes in almost every part of my body. I was very scared. I spent 2 to 3 weeks in emergency room. Laying in bed & smelling bag of blood that was either pumped back into me or out. I stared at the sealing everyday. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t get up, I couldn’t eat anything..except for IV. After that I was in recovery room, I was so weak…I couldn’t pick up a cup of water & I had a lot of trouble standing up. I ended up missing out on going into 3rd grade, because I was in the hospital. After I moved to USA in 2000 with my mother, it was a new experience. I didn’t have any friends for 3 or 4 years. I didn’t know any English, I had to learn it from scrap. I still stink at writing part of English. I ended up passing school with OKAY grades. I have trouble in math, I’d say a lot. I barely past the exit exam at school. Math was hard. After 2009, I feel like bad luck has began. After I graduated high school, I ended up splitting away from my gf. Relationship didn’t work out, than I got into a new relationship & that was more of emotional attached one. But we ended up splitting up. Now I am going to community college & Its my 3rd year & I feel depressed over it. Idk how will I pass it, I can’t even pass Algebra 1.
I don’t understand people my age, I don’t understand their way of life. Girls are dressing slutty & going to the clubs & some get drunk. I just don’t understand.
I’ve talked to few homeless people, kinda heard their stories & I’ve shared mine. But I don’t really believe every homeless person in America is their situation because he truly is homeless.
I’ve had a lot of cavities filled out & I have phobia for dentists, I’Vs, blood drawing, heights & snakes. Its just bugs me to know I have these phobias.
When it comes to talking to women, I feel like I have nothing to share & my soul is just empty. I feel like, after I moved from Russia…I lost who am I. I still listen to my Russian music, watch Russian videos on Youtube. I would not move back to Russia, because after age 18 you must serve in Russian Army. And since i am 21, I would get a jail sentence. Top it off, I can’t visit it.
My mother went to a card & hand reader woman & she told in two years..good things will happened to your son. At least thats what my mother told me.
Why did god allow me to live on the day I almost died ? I feel like, I go threw a lot of pains. At least to me their pains in my life.
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